Aquilus Vampire and Pagan Forum

For those that are new to the idea of vampyrism, I will try to explain it a little more clearly. If you have questions feel free to respond to this thread.

First of all let's get some of the myths out of the way. Quite frankly when it comes to real vampyrism, myths play no part. Vampyres are human beings, they are not reanimated corpses coming back from the dead. Until science can prove there's such a thing as Immortality as in an immortal body, in my opinion immortals do not exist. There's no transformation into bats or other animals. Vampyres do not necessarily live a longer life then the average human who lives a healthy lifestyle or diet. Just like anyone else, they are prone to diseases. They do not have supernatural strength, sure there are humans that do have more strength then others, but when it comes to vampyrism, strength does not play role in deciding if one is a vampire.

Vampirism is a condition where the individual needs energy, prana, chi to in order to sustain themselves and remain healthy. This effects them, physically, mentally and some believe spiritually. The vampiric individual needs to take energy from another person. Some are psychic vampires, they feed from chakras or elemental energies, there are also emotional vampires or empaths, who feed on people's emotions. Sanguine Vampires need to take small amounts of blood from a person to get this energy, which ideally they use a donor for. Psi Vampires also have donors. If Vampyres do not feed regularly, they have been known to go through depression or sadness, have migraines, be easily aggravated and lose train of thought. Some of these "traits" can also be linked to illness and disease and that is why it's vital to go to a doctor and make sure everything checks out. When you can rule out any illness or disease, then it's time to take a look into vampyrism. No one can tell you, you are a vampyre. This is something you need to come to terms with and decide on your own. There's no master vampire who can awaken or turn/embrace you.

Vampyres are born this way, they go through an awakening, which is like a self discovery moment where they realize something is quite different about themselves.  Some believe an awakening will happen between the teenage years or early twenties, however, there are people who have awaken later on in life.

There are some that play the role of the vampyre, they enjoy the esthetic's, the fangs, the clothes of the Gothic era and like to roleplay. There's nothing wrong with this. Some believe real vampyres are drawn naturally to the esthetics's however, not all have the fangs or content lenses and it's not necessary to have these things if you are truly vampyric.
In other words, a set of fangs does not make you a real vampyre.

A lot of times people will confuse a fetish with real vampyrism. A blood fetishist, is someone who enjoys the taste of blood. the sight and the smell, however on a deeper level they do not actually need blood to sustain their energy levels. Anyone can feed like a psy vamp, however, it's the same thing, if they do not need to feed on that energy to sustain themselves, they are not a vampyre.

I hope this clears up some misconceptions. This is just a basic idea of what vampyrism truly is, if you have anything to add or questions, please feel free to respond.

A very good article Melissa!

I definately agree with the comment made above me.
It was all explained very well.

I get it too...^

Thank you, Melissa.  That was very well written. :)

Amen Melissa. Amen. I'm very simple so that's all I have to say.

Very nicely written. ;)

I enjoyed reading this article. I am not sure if I am a psychic or emotional vampyre. This all new to me. However, I do get migraines, and become ill for no apparent reason if I am denied social interaction with people. I feel that I feed from strong emotional or sexual energy. I look forward to being enlightened by your insight.

Migraines and becoming ill from not being in contact with other people, could possibly be symptoms (I hate that word) for vampirism. However, you need to do some research and ask for help. You should also see a doctor to make sure there's not something else going on here.
I'm sorry for this late response. I just happened to notice it today. But if you have anymore questions, we'll be happy to answer what we can.

Always check the medical first. Then if that is ruled out you can look other places.

Hello all! I am new...I have been a member for a few months, but life happenings have been leaving me little time to catch up. I just wanted to say that I loved the article, and hopefully there will be more of me around. Have a blessed evening all.

Welcome to the site. We are glad to have you with us. Please feel free to post an introduction and we will give you a proper welcome.

Hi! I think I may be a vampire. When I was 10 I started to be tired. And now just before Christmas I tried to take my life :'(
The reason was/is that I'm weary depressed and has been that in over 3 years now. And most of your description match with my life. I've been at doctors and People like that and nobody knows why I'm depressed.

My question is: Is there any chance that I might be a vampire?

Well normally the first step we would recommend is to see your doctor, but you have already done that. This is about all I can comment on up to this point, but some of the other members would be more helpful and knowledgeable on this topic

Navelon, I would recommend that you read the articles and information we have on the site.
Start here: http://www.aquilus.net/pathway/content/category/4/19/122/

And second of all, no one can tell you if you are a vampire or not. That's something you will have to figure out on your own.  No one knows you like you do. And I would recommend not just seeing medical doctor, you may need to see a psychiatrist that may be able to help you. Plus, being suicidal has nothing to do with vampirism and furthermore, we have rules that no one can discuss suicide in our forums. If you haven't read the rules, please do so.

Well I have read the rules and I haven't discussed it. I was just telling how depressed I was. And I know that I must figure it out on my own I just want help with more "tests" to do to see if I am one.
And about the psychiatrist. I've already done that to. And I've tried anti-derisive and pills like that and the only thing that happened was that I feel even worse. That is why I searching for things like this. I believe in "magic" but the psychiatrist doesn't. Trust me in this. I have tried all "normal" ways.

I'm sorry if I offended any one in some way but as you can understand I need a answer in some questions and that is what I'm searching for.

Well, is there any way I can test if I am a vampire or can I trust my feelings?

OK. Sorry, I missed that part that you are not allowed to give advice on mental health. This is maybe why you didn't answer my question. I can understand that and if I have get it all right I will need to trust my feeling. But then I ask a question that you are allowed to answer. How do I know which type of vampire I am?

I would have to say alot of research, alot of reading and alot physical experience.

I agree with Twisted. Do a lot of reading. Talk to a lot of people.
One question to ask yourself is whether you need to take in energy.

There are two types of vampires, Sanguinarians and Psychic Vampires.
Sanguinarians are blood drinkers. They get their energy from taking small amounts of blood from donors. I can't go into further detail about Sanguinarians because we have a special forum for that type of discussion. Psychic Vampires have the ability to feed psychically from their donor.
I think you need to research those two types. I have to ask though, because you are dealing with depression, is this the only reason why you think you may be vampire? There's a lot more to it then just feeling depressed. Everyone goes through bouts of depression, but that doesn't mean everyone is a vampire.  I'm trying to help you here, but you first need to do some research and read up on some information. There are no tests to tell if you are a vampire. You have to do research into the subject and you have to do a lot of soul searching to get to know yourself.
No one can give you a yes or no answer here, like I stated before, only YOU know YOU.

Yeah, Thanks for the answers. No the depression is not why I think I might be a Vampire. I have read some of your descriptions and I felt like that was me, you were talking about. I haven't said that I am a vampire yet. I'm still reading about it and will not do anything before I have read further. I'm very use to reading about stuff like this and I know what I'm doing. So no worries. You seems to be worried about the risk that I could do anything stupid. But you can be sure that I won't. I have all the help I need and now I'm just searching for the fact. Thanks again for the answers you gave me and I guess I have to read from now on.

Unfortunately, no one can tell you whether you are or not. We have all had to come to our own conclusions after much reading and soul searching.

I wish you luck in your search.

But why call it Vampyrism? Isn't that name already taken?

It's like taking bread and say that real bread is made out of stone?

Why did the Protestants take the Catholics religion?
Why did LaVey take Satanism as the name on his religion when the LaVeyism is a life philosophy more than a religion?
Why did my mom call me Christoffer when there are so many others that have that name?

If you're asking me my answer will be: Because it is that way. The world is like that. The humans like to have an identity.

That is the name that stuck because it best fit the condition.

Yes but it's very hard for an outsider to take you seriously. If you claim to have an urge to drink blood, steal energy or whatever. It's good to call it something scientific. And if you dress Gothic. color your hair black and dress like how you expect a vampire to dress. Your credibility sinks?

First of all we don't all dress alike.
You wouldn't know most of us if you met us on the street, or the bank, or the supermarket. In fact you probably have and didn't know it.
We do laundry, have kids, scrub our bathrooms...you get the idea. We are just like everyone else.
We are just people that have something different about us.

Most of us do not take what we need by force or "stealing" it without permission. The few that do are looked upon as being- basically- criminals.

There are people who are called "Lifestylers" that often do try to emulate the vampires of fiction.  You probably won't find many of them hanging around this board, at least not for long.
There are also those who live a very high profile and enjoy attention. Most of us do not. In fact most of us tend to look at those who do as "media whores".

I understand that Johns Hopkins University is studying the "condition" by the way. If that lends it more credibility then great. If not...well. *shrugs*

And this assumption comes from where? I don't think that my credibility stinks at all. If someone is uncomfortable with who I am then they do not have to be around me period. If I get laughed that then that their problem not mine. I am the type that is very upfront with who I am. I am the wife of a solider and I am still looked highly upon. There should be no scientific term, we are who we are and I like that.

What about your avatars? They are very "gothic". And just the name Vampire in itself. Why not parasite? A Vampire is an undead. A parasite is a lifeform surviving on other lifeforms.

You are confusing self expression, artistic expression, and vampirism. And making some bold assumptions about people you do not know. You are also lumping different types of people together in one group. You would be better off to read and learn more. And don't get so hung up on a name.

You seem to be thinking of the movie version of a vampire. Have you done any reading on the subject, such as reading this site?
We are just as alive as I assume you are.

I would suggest some serious reading on sites such as this. There are many out there.

Everyone has different beliefs.

Oh..and did you notice that at least one of us has an angel as an avatar? That doesn't mean he is one (although, who knows?). ;)
One avatar is a ninja too. Now, he may actually be... no one is quite sure. hehe

Seriously...don't take simple avatars as being all that significant.

They are Angels? They look like something gothic maybe succubuses.

One person's is an angel. Mine is just a generic spooky chic.  Bobby's is a ninja. lol
We all just have odd taste I think.
For awhile mine was The Cheshire Cat from Alice in Wonderland. lol

My avatar came from American McGees Alice. I played the game and I love Alice in wonderland anyway. But the point I am trying to make is that your view seems a bit skew. I only hope that you do a bit more reading and get a better understanding of what we are all about.

 Now that the troll has been banned, let's get back on topic here talking about vampirism. In other words,
:trolls:

I will have to admit that there is something I have always felt, something more than I am. I have always felt someone is watching. Not just one, but many. I used to draw horrific things, until my mother found them. Something about blood I have always been attracted to. I remember trying to recreate blood...the look, feel, texture, when I was 12. But honestly, I still feel there is something more I have to do, something calling if you will. Dont know what it is, but I want to find out.

I'm sure you will with time and searching.

 :goodpost: 

I enjoyed this article. I've been curious about real vs. Hollywood vampires.  :P

Melissa. This opened my eyes. It's like I got a new vision on myself.
Thank you so much for this.

I agree, no one but you can know if you're a vampire or not.