May I ask:
Do you have lasting effects from these dreams while awake, or does the feeling disappear within moments after awakening?

Do you have any physical effects?

Are there particular times when these dreams happen? Any particular pattern?

Sometimes keeping a journal of this kind of thing can help to figure out what is going on.

It's so hard sometimes. Unfortunately, I don't believe that anyone else can tell you what this may mean.

My suggestion is to read as much as you can and ask opinions...but remember that what anyone says is just an opinion. Take whatever they say as such and not as hard fact.

I really suggest keeping a pad next to your bed and making a journal so that you can track these "dreams" to see if there is a pattern of some kind.

It could be your unconscious telling you that you are awakening to a vampire nature. It could also be dreams of attack cause by the energy of someone you are around, or of your own insecurities (we all have insecurities by the way).

It could simply be extremely vivid dreaming

The thing is that there are so many things it could be.
Ultimately you are the one who has to figure this out. Others can offer suggestions, but it is ultimately your heart and mind that will tell you the truth of it.

Good luck with it. I wish I had the answers for you, but I don't.

Yes, I think you are pretty close on this. Because a few nights ago I heard a mother calling out to her child who must have been missing.

I also have been experiencing a healing energy after the attacks but also a darkness that is hard to overcome.

There are ways of shielding that might help you. Everyone should learn shielding to protect themselves from the negative things out there.
One way is to settle and visualize yourself in a bubble of white light or a silver bubble that has a mirrored surface.
See it covering you and protecting you. The more you practice this the easier it gets to maintain it.

Grounding and centering should be practiced every day. Meditation is extremely helpful in learning to focus and weed out the stray thoughts that keep you from focusing.

I advise this to everyone.

There are lots of shielding techniques to be found on the internet, but I find these the easiest to start with.

Sometimes it seems that using symbolic references helps. Such as prayers sometimes Wiccan or Christian. I have invoked the elements during these dreams and managed to significantly halt the attack. I wonder if it's almost like this "shadow" aspect of myself that is coming to life.

It also seems related to my energy levels.

I don't know enough about Vampires to know if I am being called to it. But it does seem that draining other's energy, that feeding upon their auras, that other's emotions, and the idea of blood is helping calm it down.


The reason I think it could be a part of my nature is that it seems embedded in my psyche. So, possibly I have vampire blood in me or something..

Well said Poppy.
Do lots of soul searching. Meditate and search inside yourself for the answers.
Also, ask questions. Everyone has different ideas and thoughts on the subject.
Different people have different symptoms and ways of dealing with them. But remember, only you can determine who you are and what's right for you.

No problem.

I do too. Keep us posted? Someone else here may have ideas to help.

*smiles* Good!

It's been a really long time since I've had the vampire attack encounter. I think it feels like it's going away. But it is so strange, or was strange, I am not sure... I now have a fear of going to sleep because the dreams are physically painful. So I clear my mind and usually I don't have these physical nightmares of this entity....

It started with paralysis, I would be a little sleepy and then woosh I would suddenly be under full blown paralysis, with weakened thoughts and emotional powerlessness. The powers of the darkness over me have been harsh. I can't seem to do anything that isn't "sunshine" or else it'll just break me down. I don't want to think of that as weak or like I need help or something. But it's been awhile...I've found myself actually pleading with this force of darkness.

I also seem to be praying a lot to God. I feel that I have to somehow redeem myself in God or the demon will just devour me. That's what I've felt like, like this is a lesson in demons and darkness. FORCING me to believe in God. Forcing me to pray, forcing me away from witchcraft and everything I feel attracted to.  Because I have to "fight" the dark with the light. The problem is that I don't really want to. I like the darkness. I feel like a witch to the witches and a monstrous child to a God. A lie to the ghost.

Why must people have such consequences for their actions to believe in something that doesn't give reason to its right?

Is this my Catholic upbringing suddenly awakening this secret force of oppression. Is everything a science that can't be proven?

Why must I be trained to become something I am not?
I think it's possible I could have a Vampire's nature. I know that Vampirism might be possible....but actually now that I think of it...sure people have choices but I do believe that everyone has a right to be to their full power.


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I agree with Nick on this one as well. Especially:


That's a classic description of what many people go through that have these hag attacks. If I was you, I would start there and see if it fits with what's going on with you. It's a good place to start and may help quite a bit. Here's some information: http://paranormal.about.com/library/weekly/aa112000a.htm

http://www.dreamsnightmares.com/sleepparalysis.html

http://www.castleofspirits.com/sleepparalysis.html

It is in my opinion that hag attacks are not always created by ones on consciousness in fact I attribute my attacks in my past to entities known as shadow people. However there may be other such energy leeching entities out there that may take a feed. The use of the word Vampire in this forum refers to the human condition, we feed but there is no paralysis in our methods. We're mere energy manipulators not mesmers of any kind. I suggest you research, that seems to be the key.

Also I would suggest post a topic about this in the Paranormal entities section(if this suits the feelings of the Admins/Mods) I believe there the discussion will be more relevant and you may find more answers from the paranormal side of the community.

You seem to know of what I am experiencing. I am not sure what to attribute it to, but it does seem of darkness. I originally made this topic thinking that perhaps the shadow was a vampire aspect of my psyche and that it may have had to do with an awakening of some kind, I'm really just trying to explain it. I wouldn't mind at all if the topic was moved to the Paranormal boards. It also may be easily explained away scientifically.

It seemed to be much more intense when I was practicing witchcraft. It just goes to show you the power of the mind.

I had experienced one very strange paralysis after reading in The Encyclopedia of Magic And Alchemy by Rosemary Guiley about the "death prayers" of the Kahuna (sp) Preists in Hawaii. The factor would be that it really interested me.
That night as I dosed off to sleep I began experiencing symptoms of the death prayer. Paralysis starting in the toes going up my body and this sort of intense feeling of dread. But I woke myself up, it left me tired. The feelings of depression seem to arise out of this paralysis. It's really confusing.


Most likely this is a form of sleep paralysis or a sleep disorder. But it might have roots in something paranormal.

Personally, I wouldn't rule out the paranormal just yet.
And moving the thread? I believe it will stay right where it's at. I think this may help other's who belive these attacks could be a vampire. Many tend to jump to vampires or vampirism and believe they are being fed from or drained when things like this happen. It may actually help people more reading it in this board, rather than the paranormal board. That doesn't mean, we can't discuss this situation and try and help Gabrielle, even if it does lean more towards the paranormal.