Rest assured Sarinth, many people have been where you currently are. Don't be afraid to question yourself. That's the best way to get to know the real you and to get comfortable with the idea of being a real vampire. Do plenty of research and question everything!

Thanks don't worry I question everything anyway, still it's a hard to choice to make..

The last three years have took myself and my marriage and most likely my soul to Hades and back again. Yet I would not change where I am now for anything in this world. I am more self aware and self assured than I have ever been. I no longer carry the unnecessary fears around on my shoulders. I feel like I can be "me" and show my children and others that they have a right to follow their own paths.

My answer to this question is always NO! 

A moth doesn't question whether or not it should emerge from its cocoon.

An owl doesn't curb its inclination to soar silently through the night, to use the talons that nature gave it in order to gain sustenance.

I am created as Nature intended.

At times over the years I have questioned Her wisdom. Even now sometimes doubts surface.

Yet when I let myself come to a place of stillness, I see Her in my mind's eye, smiling benevolently, reassuring me that what I am is what I am MEANT to be.

In that place of stillness, I see my vampirism for the gift that it is.

I would not change who I am.

At first I probably would have, since it came into awareness rather sharply. But I don't think I can bring myself to wish for it gone anymore, since there is no "back" for me to go to. Like many of you have said, this is me, and I wouldn't change it for the world.