Aww, that's terrible! Hope all is well again and you now can focus on your spirituality once more. I've only recently came back to my spiritual path through finding this site. It really just encouraged me to look out all my old books on the subject and reread up on what it means to be Wiccan etc.

For a long time I just refused to believe in anything, felt like I didn't have the time, especially with study and starting university. Now that I'm getting back into the way of things I like the feeling of being part of a community (the Pagan community and also this online community).

Hope I've helped, atleast a teeny bit lol.

Thanks for responding. Unfortunately, no I can't take a small sabbatical to back in the swing of things. I think that would help a great deal though, but it's just not something I can do right now.

One word Melissa,..."Believe".

Believe in yourself and whats at your core. Believe in the friend, who does believe in you. Believe that everyone does have times when things just seem to be low, and they have to keep believing that their spirit will rise again. It will! Believe that today is today, and another day with its dawning is just one sleep away and on that day, things will be brand new. Believe that sometimes, friends go their own way, and sometimes that way isn't your way. Believe that the process is often painful, but often necessary. Believe that they will change, and you will change, for life is change. Enjoy them for what they are, and remember them for what they were. Believe that deep down somewhere, they really are believing the same, because they are, whether they will admit it right now or not. Believe.

Peace>

Allin>

Anytime my friend. HUGS

Here is the link to the other site with the good photos of the Kuji In. I forgot to put it in my post.
http://www.ninjaa.com/kuji2.htm

Also I edited in my first post.

:::hugs Melissa:::

I actually know how you feel, though you would not know by reading my posts ( ). 

I been very much so clustered with changes happening all at once in my life  (as if college and being an active part of the community did not take my time!) , as well as experiencing some tragedies of my own to one small degree or another, and I have not had much time to perform any sort of prayer or rites of worship!  It more or less leaves me here, feeling rather incomplete and rather guilty that I have not been able to do any traditional routines, or expand on them.  I even wonder if part of my mental health is attributed to the lack of time to get connected with my more spiritual side, or at least even more than normal. 

However, I think more recent events have also been God throwing hints at me to sort of think about him/her/it more often.  I have been given hints to keep away from being too gluttonous on certain things (diet included) and to get back on track in trying to re-attach to my spiritual aspect, as well.  I also feel that despite all of this, perhaps the moment of feeling incomplete was actually me going through a spiritual evolution, adjusting to a new step on the journey.  This all occurred as possibilities to me when I tried to pray and seek more signs from God, or at least however one wishes to call him/her/it.  After sometime of this, while I still have things to work on for my mental and spiritual health, it sort of occurred to me that I am living my spirituality by pursuing the path that I am.  God is patient, and I can only eternally damn myself if I let myself do so (since I firmly believe there are -very-, -VERY- few things that are eternally damned, since God rarely in my belief system makes that call).  I will find my way and find my peace, in one lifetime or the next.  :-)

I am not sure if this is of any help...but I can say I know, to a certain degree or another, how you feel, Melissa.

I hope you can find your way, whatever that way is. 


Sincerely,
ResplendentSeraphim