I just couldn't wait to get on that plane. Get on that plane and leave my country, my parents, my 'friends' behind me.
I just couldn't wait to get here and be who I've wanted to be all these years... myself.
It finally came, I cant believe how good this is, a place without people telling you what to be, a place where I can make my own life - be independent. A place where I could do what I wanted, because I lived in my parents house -hence their rules.

My first paycheck, six weeks since I've eaten a good meal, first thing on my list is good food. I stock my fridge, I get a PC, I get the internet, I throw out my old clothes and replace them, black - its my colour.

I arrive at work with my new clothes, my new attitude, my new self-confidence.
This is incredible! I shout to in my mind, as I walk through the doors.

My world stops! How could this be?!
Rejection.

Rejection for my beliefs
Rejection for the way I dress.

Heya

My name is Kalf.
I have found myself lost and confused in England. I am 22 years old, and have lived with my parents in South Africa until three months ago. With a Christian for a mother and an Atheist for a father, who believe anything not his way is Satanic. After the divorce I found myself living most of my life with my mother, a strict lady who did not permit me to wear anything black.
I now live on my own, I dress only in black. I believe in the Christian/Jewish God. I don't believe The Bible is completely true, I believe in the greed of man and if someone had the power to alter the thinking of man they would abuse it, but I do believe The Bible teaches some very good morals. I have just started studying the ways of the Occult, that is how I found this website.
Because of the way I dress and what I believe, I feel that I'm an outcast of society. And since I am still in very new surroundings it is hard for me to find like minded people.
This world can be a lonely place when you don't know anyone and people seem to cross to the other side of the road when they see you coming.
Hopefully,  what I want to get from these forums and website is some form of acceptance.

How they say it?

Blessed be.
Kalf

Hey Kalf, welcome to Aquilus. I hope you find what you are looking for here.  You will also find there are some here with the same ideas on Christianity as you. I hope you find those around you that have the same beliefs there in England. In the meantime though, we are here to answer any questions and fill in that void for you!

Again, welcome!

You are welcome here Kalf. Please make yourself at home.