Hi Nicholas.  I'd like to respond to a part of you post that I'm sure that you've probably already heard, but......I feel that one of the biggest issues here is that you are listening to a hand full of disgruntled people that have nothing better to do than to bring other's down.  You have to realize that these people that are stating that Vampires are nothing but people that have a talent for theft, are in themselves stealing the moral of other subjected to their crap.  It's all about YOU brother.  Does it really matter what a handful of people think?  I guess to some it might, however, you have to be comfortable with yourself.  Do you think you're a thief?  I'm betting that the answer is no.  You have to have faith in yourself.  We all have low points in our lives (trust me on this one), but I want you to go to a mirror, take a good hard look at the face staring back and tell yourself that you're better than these clowns.  They are trying to achieve a purpose with their negative energy, if you fall for it they win.
You require a little extra energy like allot of people, you can't change that and trying to may eventually wear on you mentally and physically.  Is it worth it?  Nope.  Not by a long shot.  Be yourself my friend and be proud of who you are and the moral code that you stand for.

I also agree Nick. Sounds like you are letting negative people get to you. As far as losing faith in vampirism, it can't be done. You can lose faith in a belief, but not in something that is part of you. At best you can try to deny it, but it is not a thing of faith. Embrace who you are. Your true friends will always accept you for that. And there will always be people who can only feel better about themselves by putting others down.

I truly appreciate all of the insight you have all given me. You are all correct, I wasn't loosing faith in Vampyrism I was doubting myself more than anything. To speak on a psychological level for a moment, people if they told they are something long enough they tend to begin to believe all of what they are told. I believe in this case this is what happened to me, the constant disbelief from my peer who know about Vampyrism, and the random comments and judgments along the way began as a simple stream and eventually carved into me the like the grand canyon. I'm thankful for your support, I shall take all of your advice to heart and be on guard to never let this happen again.

Thanks again... *Applause to you all*

I believe it is part of the spiritual growth process.  It heralds the time when one transitions from comprehending all of the definitional qualities of oneself and begins realizing (slowly) the deeper realities of what those defining characteristics really mean psychologically and spiritually.

I am always going through this at some level.  Even now...

It is exactly like a cycle. There will be times of self doubt and recriminations. This is how we learn. The struggles within push us toward the surface like a seed in the spring.

I have often felt over the years that I was fighting myself. Struggling out of a skin that was too tight. Has anyone ever tried to peel out of a wetsuit after diving or surfing? It's exactly that kind of thing. I think we "shed our skins" on a metaphysical level as we become more enlightened.

The struggles are what make us stronger. And ultimately, it is the journey that is the reason we are all here.

Please do not let the "little minded" of the world force you to wallow in their misery. Reach for yourself and grow to be the being you are meant to be. YOU are the only one who knows who that is.


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